brutalize me sodomize me open my wrists entrapment sanitize me criticize me climb inside me rancid paralyze me don't realize me use abuse me dyslexic and blind it's over this feeling or is it beginning it's different no meaning what's wrong with me should I try try again just hoping it's changing when really it's crashing right into me sacrificing so inviting nothing's changing confusion always sleeping hurt is creeping always speeding so different something's not right something's hiding I cant' describe it it's wrecking my mind thinking thinking thinking thinking train wreck train wreck train wreck train wreck hoping this mind infectious life dead wanting this life disturbing mind dead look in the mirror I only see shit realize the end because this is it